3/4 of the way done recording my meditation experiences for my mental discipline requirement!
Another 3 sitting meditations this week, plus Tea with the Kindreds. All went well enough, though my focus is still inconsistent. I did a slightly different version of the two powers this week, this time combining the two powers script with a tree visualization (roots stretching down, leaves reaching upwards). I think I liked it better than without the tree visualization. I like trees, and I’ve been doing various tree visualizations for years, so the combination feels very familiar in a good way.
I encountered the same presence in Tea with the Kindreds this week that I’ve encountered a few times before. Mostly I just said hello and that I was pleased he was there. He and one of my cats have now been introduced as well, since Max came and sat on me in the middle of my tea. I get a very positive energy feeling from these encounters, which is encouraging.
I also thought I might start drawing a rune a week, to help familiarize myself with them more. This week, of course, I drew Kenaz – a notoriously difficult rune to interpret. The question I asked was “What do I need to focus on this week?”.
Kenaz: Torch, Ulcer, Cheer, Pain, Death
Kenaz can be read either as torch (from some rune poems) or ulcer (from other rune poems). I get a generally negative feeling from this rune this time, so I’m not going to jump immediately to the more positive interpretation. I think, though, I understand what this particular rune drawing is trying to say. Not that I am supposed to focus on pain in a wallowing, self-defeating sort of way, but that I should focus on managing and dealing with pain (something I deal with frequently, as I have chronic pain from a joint disorder, as well as dealing with mental illness). It’s not exactly a happy omen, but one that I probably needed to hear.
I’ll try to remember to check back in with this rune throughout the week, and see if my gut reading about it is correct. (On a much more mundane note, I’m going this week to see the specialist who is helping me with pain management as well, so there may be some of that referenced in the reading.)
Little Druid on the Prairie 
Yay for being 3/4 done with a requirement! I’m curious, how do you know the presence you feel is male? Do you just get the feeling that it is male?
Blessings,
Victoria
At the risk of sounding barking moonbats crazy, I asked, and He answered. (as opposed to asking and She answered) The presence just feels male, in a sort of unquestionable way. The voice I heard when I asked about the incense was also distinctly male. I’m not sure what about it gives it away, but I have no doubt that I’m dealing with a male spirit (and I’m pretty sure it’s a male God at this point).
Very cool.